I was happily maried for 29 years to a great man of God when suddenly without warning he had an heart attack. This was very painful for me. The day he died was the day that we had planned to visit our second grandchild whom he had never seen in the Cayman Islands.
When that happened I was very angry with God. I was very angry because my late husband and I served God faithfully for many years in the ministry in Jamaica, the Cayman Islands and the United States of America.
I began to question God. I knew there was a God somehere out there but I felt the way Jesus felt whne he cried,"My God, My God why has though forsaken me."
My husband and I were just about to enjoy the empty nest. for many years we took care of our child and many other children..Now we were ready to relax and enjoy each other.
But this was not meant to be. In all of my grief God never left me alone.
He sent many people in my life to love and to encourage me.
The loneliness grew deep in my life . For a brief periodI dated two men which was not the will of God. Because of this though I was asked to be a speaker at a Widows Conference.
I was asked to share about dating again. see my blog.http://widowed-journey.blogspot.com/
From this experience I also wrote two poems, and words which I plan to use on book marks.
Rest in the lord and wait patiently for Him Psalm. 37:7
Wisdom
Answered prayers
Intuition
Tenacity/Time/ Trust
http://widowed-journey.blogspot.com/2008/09/widows-cry.html
http://widowed-journey.blogspot.com/2008/07/single-again.html
From this experience I have learned that weeping may endure for a time but joy comes in the morning. I thoght I would never laugh again.
Reading scriptures and listening to praise and worship songs were very helpful to me.
In May 2009 I lost my teaching job.
One Sunday as I was about to go through the door of my house on my way to church, I cried out to God and He said,"This is The House of Restoration".
I immediately went to my office, got on my computer and created a social net work site .
http://www.thehouseofrestoration.ning.com
This site is a place where anyone who has experienced los can come and find uplifting music, words of encouragement and laughter.
May have expressed to me how much this ministry have helped them.
When I lost my job he connected me to a company whose CEO is a Ministry.
This company helps Non-profit organization to raise all the funds they want. For over 30 years I was invloved in funds rasing for schools and churches being a teacher and pastors wife.
I am now an encourager at the church I attend. I alos volunteer to feed the homeless locally twice per week. I enjoy what I do now and joy has returned to me.
Presently I am in the process of writng a book,"Widows Journey"
Experiencing any kind of loss is not a pleasant thing. The pain is real. When it happens, you question God and ask , "Why me Lord?" Its worse when God remains silent.
The good news is, there is hope. Weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning.
Tassel Daley
813 651 9811
http://www.tasgreatizops.ws/page10.html
